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A Testimony to God's Love

This is a testimony to my God who loves me with His perfect love. Our daughter, Sarah Diane Wagner Santoro, died on August 1, 2001. It was a dark, life-changing and awful experience for me and my family. Although the loss is always there, scabbed over after time, I can attest to the work of my Lord and Savior though this journey.  Right after Sarah’s death, our nation experienced 9/11.  I saw our nation, those countless families grieving, confused, looking for the same answers my husband and I needed.  We found our answers on our knees in the very first minutes after we learned of Sarah’s death.

      After our son-in-law, Mike called to tell us that Sarah had died, my husband and I knelt by the bed calling to God for help.  From the very beginning of our journey as a married couple,  dealing with major illnesses in our family, and then in our second journey dealing with Sarah’s death, God walked with us.  The grief we experienced tore at our faith, challenged our cognitive abilities, and went to war with our physical health; but through total dependence on our Lord and Savior, we found new strength in God, in His Word.  God comforts, heals our pain, and offers ways to minister to others though it all. We have the gift of the Holy Spirit who guides us. Our Father in heaven brings light and clarity to the journey and is with us though all the valleys and straight to the mountain tops.  It is actually through our experiences that I discovered where God called me to work in His Kingdom.

     I know God walks with us through grief. I know in Christ, even in the darkest days, we have hope!  I know God uses the devastating losses in our lives for His glory if we fully trust Him through the dark days.  I know, without a doubt, that God loves me, and I have a home in heaven because of His love, the love that caused Him to give His son to die, that I might have life.

" Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod and your staff, the comfort me."  Psalm 23:4

"He will cover you with his pinions, and under His wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and a buckler." Psalm 91:4

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son,  that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life."  John 3:16